Try to downplay being uptight, oh you're right...

My goal for the new year? Becoming more open with people. Telling them what I actually want instead of hiding. It's been a long year and I feel like the things that have happened to me and that I've caused are there for a reason and I finally feel like I'm growing towards something that I want to be. I'm not sure what that is yet, but I'm excited about it.

Blythe came to town this past Friday and Saturday and it was great to see her. As soon as she steps into my life, I feel like I need to go off and do something completely crazy. I don't understand it, but there it is. So I'm going to figure something out that I want to do and then go do it. Maybe a spontaneous road trip this spring. That could be what I need. Who knows what the future holds, but I think I'm going to do it. Just grab some stuff, jump into the car and drive somewhere. No expectations, but I want to do something strange. We'll see if I hold onto it though.

Training program has taken a few hits lately, but that doesn't mean that I'm not on track. I've lost about 5 pounds thus far and that's a good start. I pulled a muscle a few weeks ago and having the holidays around haven't helped me get back on track, but the goal is still there and the sit-ups and push-ups have helped my back out tremendously. So I just need to keep at it and the results will come.

Sorry about the length between posts. I'll have some more sometime soon.

Happy new year everyone.