It's all I can do...

I have two sets of friends getting married this summer. And while this isn't really much of a surprise, it is the first time any of the people that I knew are getting married. Strange, considering that I'm going to be 26 this year. I guess I thought it happen a bit quicker but I find myself completely unprepared. I spent at least an hour last night staring at the ceiling when I should have been sleeping, thinking about it. My friend Cassie is ready to be married and Em and Daniel certainly seem incredibly happy together, so I'm not really surprised by either of them tying the knot. And I hope it comes off perfectly for them. But it does reflect how different my situation is to..., well, everyone else. I don't think I'm ready to get married any time soon and I can see no one that I'd like to get married to right now anyway. I can't even see anyone that I'm ready to date and yet it's springtime and people are hooking up all around me. This makes me feel strange, like I'm doing something wrong, but I don't feel like that's true. I know that I'm a decent looking guy and I have some good qualities to offset the poor ones, but I don't see anything changing for me any time soon. The last couple of girls I've asked out were either seeing someone or just plain wrong for me. And while this probably benefits me in the long run, it kind of sucks. Well, it really sucks. I'd like to find someone and I hate feeling like it's too much to ask. I've been patient long enough and despite the fact that this comes off as a desparate plee, it's really not. To quote John Mayer (I know, I know!) "I'm tired of being alone, so hurry up and get here." Well, we're waiting... (That's a little Judge Smails for ya...)

While I was typing this, Windows was updating my computer and continually kept sending me an update suggesting I restart my computer so that Windows could finish its update. Don't let you panties get in a twist there Billy, I'll be right with you. When I'm done.